Explain to me again, how I could have ever lived anywhere else? This morning is a morning of "all things are exactly as they should be" and "this life is a beautiful one". Of stretching and deep breathing to my favorite guided meditation, followed by a dance party of one to new music from old friends. Of finalizing creative, exciting plans. Of taking steps to explore more of what makes my pulse race. Of pouring love and light into my hopes and visions, then patiently and faithfully releasing them because I know I will be guided. Of the feeling of cold feet on the hardwood being warmed in a hot shower (hello, Fall, you remind me constantly that I am alive). And of re-reading this piece of writing I stumbled upon this weekend that practically shocked me into one of my biggest Oprah "A ha" moments, ever. Since then, the past few days have been an effortless flow of love, patience, exploration, forgiveness and seeing things (and people) with new light. Areas of life that felt fuzzy and unknown are now fully embraced as exactly that--and suddenly they aren't so scary. If anything, they are now terribly exciting and enticing. What will be will be. The present moment is perfect as well as perfectly flawed because I make it so.
"...The fear that something is missing somewhere in you or in your life is the greatest illusion of all. It is a rogue thought that can wreak havoc with perception, creating much self-doubt, self-criticism, and self-attack. It is a dastardly magician that conjures up mental tricks of lack, loss, isolation, neediness, dependency, and much pain.
The fear that something is missing in you is what leads you to search somewhere else for happiness. You overlook what is already “here” as you chase after “there”; you miss the “sacred now” as you ponder your “next step”; you forget to be grateful for what “is” as you prey after “more.” You search, struggle, and strive, but you never arrive because you can’t get past the thought that something is missing.
Can you see that all your pain comes from the belief that your source of happiness is outside you? This single misperception—this little fear—is what feeds your mental junk, your learned unworthiness, and your “not good enough” stuff. Notice how all your thoughts of fear and lack are reversed the moment you accept that every piece of universal joy rests already in your heart. Feel this, now."
Oh hey life. We're pretty in synch right now, don't ya think?
So ready for what's next.
In deep Gratitude,